“At that time I, Daniel, mourned for three weeks. 3 I ate no choice food; no meat or wine touched my lips; and I used no lotions at all until the three weeks were over. “
Daniel 10:2-3
Daniel understood the need to cry out to God for his needs. At times it is taught that if we call out to God to meet our needs, we are some how selfish or self-centered since after all there are people in the world who have larger or deeper needs than we have. The Bible teaches something very different about God. God loves to meet our needs. One of the prerequisites for Him working in our lives is that we have to ask for it.
“Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete.”
John 16:24
It makes complete sense that we have to ask first, because only then do we know who to give the credit for what we have been given. Our thanksgiving can be misguided if we don’t ask, expect and see God’s answer. The reason for our anemic faith is that we are not consistent in asking, expecting and watching God move on our behalf. Every time God answers He is established deeper and deeper in our hearts as the source of life for us.
Two of the reasons we don’t ask: we don’t believe God can do anything about our situation or we don’t believe God can continue to help. Dealing with the first, simply put, we don’t think God is the answer or gives the answer. So we work to make things happen on our own. Our faith in Him is so weak that we don’t see God as real and tangible.
The second reason we don’t ask is we feel like God’s answers are a commodity. We think God’s blessings, attention, and help is limited like our bank account. It is huge to remember God knows everything all the time, and is every where at the same time, all the time. God is unlimited by size, scope, and time. His blessings never run out. He has no beginning and no end. Knowing this in theory only will never help us to know Him. God gives, God meets needs, God heals, God gives favor, and so much more because He then can help our small understandings to be stretched over at least a portion of who He is. Jesus healed, fed, and did miracles so we could begin to understand who He is. The miracles of God working on our behalf help us to begin to know Him. A glimpse of the unlimited power of God is caught through the lifetime of daily dependence on and recognition of God’s provision and deliverance.
Our deliverance wasn’t so we could become self-sufficient, independent people for God, but that we would hold onto God as our resource and strength as He recreates us into a surrendered people in the image of Christ. He is our maker, creator, and we are His masterpiece. The people of His making.
My personal Journey
I started my full blown fast Sunday. The preparation is finished and now I am fasting, listening, and seeking God.
In the past I have fasted for answers, understanding, breakthroughs, and blessings to name a few. This fast I am seeking wisdom and God’s favor. I read about Esther’s fast and can relate to her in that she was seeking God because it was sudden death. God would have to act on her behalf or she and her people would be destroyed. Similar fasts in scripture are those of Nehemiah and the city of Nineveh.
At this point in my life and in my pastorate, I realize that Holiness isn’t an option but a requirement. I feel today the constant pressure to be the person I need to be. I still have areas of my life that are strongholds and pitfalls. I need to be a better person, a more consistent person.
What I’m not…
I’m not committed to God like He requires. At times I want a break from God to do what I want to do, not what He has called me to do.
I’m not consumed with holy thoughts like I should. At times my thoughts are raunchy, bitter, and far from God.
I’m not the passionate leader. At times I don’t like certain people. Sometimes I promise to pray for people and don’t do it. At times I’m not a passionate husband.
I’m not always honest. I don’t tell the truth about some things. Mainly things that will make me look bad or good. At times I would rather look good in others eyes than I would like to tell it like it really is.
I’m not humble all the time. Pride is often my bed fellow. At times I can’t even listen to criticism of me or my church family.
I’m not as brave as I want everyone else to think I am. I get scared. I worry.
I’m not selfless. Lots of times I realize I am in things for me.
I’m not responsible. I blame others at times for the things that are my fault.
I’m not forgiving. There are people I have had a funeral in my mind for who didn’t deserve it but they were too much trouble for me so I dismissed them.
I’m not sacrificial. At times I don’t want to give, serve, or do. I want someone else to.
A lot of things I’m not but I should be. I need God’s help to be more like Jesus. I want to be different. So I fast.